[~*Vintage^Dream*~]

Monday, July 31, 2006

so sad for what? =(

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this is for whoever who wants to know. i actually looked up merriam-webster. hehe

Main Entry: ser·en·dip·i·ty
Pronunciation: -'di-p&-tE
Function: noun
Etymology: from its possession by the heroes of the Persian fairy tale The Three Princes of Serendip: the faculty or phenomenon of finding valuable or agreeable things not sought for; also : an instance of this

i do not get the "an instance of this" part.

so yeah anyway, lately, a lot of people have been dying. and in 2 of them, it's a case of a spouse leaving the other.

it breaks my heart to see old couples who've been close for, i daresay, 50 years now being separated like that. i hear stories like

he visited her everyday at the hospital. came in the morning and left at night.

and i couldn't help but tear up. firstly, because it's such a sweet gesture. he's an old man but he makes it a point to travel all the way to the hospital for every single day despite whatever pains he might have just to keep her company. and also cos i got myself thinking, "would anyone ever do that for me?"

when they carried away the body, he hugged her and shouted out for everyone to hear, "i loved her! i loved her very much.." he still cries everyday.

i wanted to wail out loud if not for my mom, aunt and uncle in the car with me. the emotional me was seeping through the cracks of my cold-as-ice exterior and i was trying real hard to keep it all in.

when he found out he was dying, he hugged her and said, "i love you, (insert name. i forgot her name. heh). i love you."

they're very close. they do everything together. every morning, they'd have breakfast together and then head to the market before he goes to work.

he looks even more frail now that she's gone.

siiiiiigh.. i just get all smiley and warm when i see old couples doing things together. like holding hands when they're out, sharing ice-cream, walking at the park, those little things that make it all lovely.

and then i wondered. did they say those words of affection when the other was alive? or did they just realise how much they loved their spouse only when he/she was dying or dead? it would've been nice to hear those words often when they were alive, you reckon? i know this is cliche but whatever you're doing today(or any other day), don't forget to tell your loved ones that you love them. =)

anyway, i wanna get myself a zen V plus no matter how broke i am! like seriously. for the first time ever, i know the meaning of broke. and it's not a nice feeling. haha.. but first thing i'll do when i get my money is to buy it. damn i have to stop spending more than i have. it's damn cheap for something so functional. hee.. but i'll start on that after i get myself this sweetie. one last indulgence before school starts. *winks*

i just have one question. is the "V" a letter or a roman numeral?

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Friday, July 28, 2006

i managed to watch thank you for smoking yesterday. it was gooood! been meaning to watch it and after a while, it slipped my mind. thank God rozzie reminded me abt in when she said it was good. so yeah, you should watch it before they stop screening it. a hilarious satire that's worth the buck. ok 7 bucks lah actually.

is it just me? or do movies screen now for waaaay shorter than before? i used to remember times where i can watch movies without haste. now it seems that if i procrastinate for just a liiiitttllleee while, the movie will stop showing redi. boooo..

anyway, i've said this before and i'm gonna say this again. stupid people are annoying! i am not proud of the fact that i find them annoying. i wish i could have a higer level on tolerance for them but oh well.. you tend to wish for things you can't get.

there's this guy on friendster whose profile name was "prince". he sent me a smile and a short message. went something like, "care to intro? add me on msn.. blah blah"

and me, not being too sociable or just plain lazy at that time just replied saying, "what you wanna know about me is pretty much in my profile so what else do you wanna know? (so bitchy for what rite?) and i'm not on msn much but when i am, i'll sure add you. =) thanks for the smile, fiza. (ok lah not so bitchy lah eh?) oh did i mention i couldnt view his profile cos it's only for viewing to people who are closely connected to him. so selfish for what?

ok this is the part where he got stupid. he replied with one long ass message abt himself (i don't remember asking) and ended with, "so what's your name?"

wtf? didn't i sign off with "fiza" in my reply? and unlike him, my profile name is my full name damn it. hafiza harun. does that sound like some profile nickname someone might use in replacement of their real name? stuuuuuupid for what?

those four words made me not wanna reply to him. haha

siiigh i'm so sad. just like that, rozzie's back in perth and next week, az is leaving and after that, school's starting. damn. just thinking about it makes me wanna cry. boooo..

anyway, just a random fact. do you know that viagra was an accidental find? pfizer tested the lil blue pill for heart condition initially and found that the men had erections. and taadaaa! the pill some men can't live without came about. haha!

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Wednesday, July 26, 2006

dinner at simpang with di waty and shisdahhhh! i love them!

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the night we went crazy at downtown east

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ronald got lucky

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don't ask and i won't tell

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after the night of crazy multi-shots that at one point, got me laughing till i needed to pee and till the muscles at my cheeks started to hurt real bad, we got home and slept at 4 only to wake up at 7+ for the FREE morning screening of the pirates of the caribbean at great world city. my mom got free tickets from her office. it was fun fun funnnn! i loved it! i can't wait for june/july next year man! wheeee! oh n the movie came with a buffet breakfast as well. yum.

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all smiles before the movie

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up next, off to kallang for princess dila's 21st birthday! =)

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i'm taking a photo of az taking a photo of me. hehe ok ok i admit i copied kenny sia

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who's ready for a McParty???
it was awesome i tell you.. the games although for kids, got us all jumping around! hahaha.. i loved it!

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happy birthday to you! happy birthday to you! happy birthday princess dila happy birthday to youu!

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a gatal moment. hehe.. played ard with az's bunny ears! wheee!
anyway, after this is straight to choa chu kang for..

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the second birthday girl and boy.

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dilah, azura, the second birthday girl and me. or moi. yes it's spelt as moi so to those annoying pple who spell it as mua, it's M-O-I!
ok back to the party. there were LOADS of pple and kids! and loads of kids means loads of screaming. and you shouldn't put a tired and sleepy fiza in the same room as screaming kids. that was the first time in my life that i realised that kids are annoying. haha.. just when i'm in a murderous mood lah.
we were playing pictionary (adults vs kids at their request) and they were sooo competitive. oh god i wanted to tape their mouths and bind their hands and legs together. dilah kept on going abt how cute they were but i was always whispering some snide remark back to dilah. at any other time, i reckon i would've found them cute too but just not at that particular time. to azura, if you're reading this, no offence k? i would feel the same way given my mood at that time if i were at any other party with screaming kids. hehe..
and then *jeng jeng jeng* the kids lost and they had to do anything the adults wanted them to. i was making my way out with dilah alredi when suddenly, they pointed at me to dance with the bday boy! wtf? haha.. so yeah i had to dance with him to some ricky martin song and i just can't help but feel paedophilic. ugh.. haha.. but it was all in good fun so it's not too bad. i hope you liked the gift azura!

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and the day ended with a super duper lovely lovely bbq at rozzie's! sort of a multi-party. rozzie's going away and her uncle's birthday. the food was yummy! esp the kebab and the cake. *slurrpppsss* i liiike.

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baybeats rocked! well it did the one night i went lah. dunno abt the rest. i went for the second night and i have to say.. the best performances would have to be plainsunset and one buck short. woohoo! so fun for what? there's this other ban from kl that was kinda good as well.. but i cant remember it's name. heh

.|. dreamed.at .|. 5:30 PM

i just had to put this up. hehe.. fara dragged us to go to tm a few saturdays back to see the idols lah. and i got a few photos of hady! wooots! and paul and jon and rahimah. and stupid jasmine and joakim cos they just had to stand beside hady. oh well

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Sunday, July 23, 2006

tsk tsk tsk.. and you thought they were men. naughty naughty..

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even alonso can't resist gerrard. kherkherkher

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Thursday, July 20, 2006

have you ever been so utterly disgusted with a complete stranger's actions?

it's not things like picking their noses in public or plucking their nasal hair in public or fiddling with their balls in public. ok i haven't actually seen someone fiddling with their balls in public but you get the drift rite?

yesterday while waiting for my bus home, i saw this real hot guy at the bus stop and i remember going ooooohhh.. i thought he was oh so yummy.

that is until a few minutes later when my bus came and it was packed to the max. like people were standing on the steps and all and there's no possible way anyone else could squeeze in from the front. the only reason the bus stopped was for like 2 people to alight.

i was already standing by the road somewhere near the door secretly hoping there would be space for me to board although i knew there was no chance when this guy, with his girlfriend in tow, squeezed in front of me and i was like rilek ah jack.

what came next was the real shocker.

he started knocking on the door expecting the bus driver to open it for him(and his gf) even though there was no fucking space.

and when the door*surprise surprise* didn't open, he started cussing and threw a tantrum. wtf.. if the driver could open the door for more to board, he would, you know. so shut the fuck up and act like the adult you are. oh yes.. he was no teen. from his dressing and overall appearance, i'd have guessed he was around 25 but he was acting like a 12 year old! seriously.

he then grabbed his gf's wrist and dragged her to the back door which was still open and attempted to board from the back and he would have done so if not for his gf's reluctance. then, he started cursing and making a scene again.

gosh.. i never saw someone so ugly in my life. ok maybe once before but that's not too bad cos he's a teen. so anyway, back to this guy. i was so disgusted i felt like kicking his shins(only cos i was too tired to lift my legs higher to reach his balls). firstly, not the whole world is against you so stop being so angsty. second, YOU DO NOT FUCKING TREAT A WOMAN LIKE THAT damn it.

ok what i'm gonna write next is totally unrelated to the above story but i just wanna write about it cos it's funny.

i called waty and the following happened after we talked for a bit.

waty: you want me to call you or not, girl? (cos she was at home)

me: ok can.

waty: fizaaaaaa! fizaaaaaa!

hahahhahahahaha.. i love waty for making me laugh all the time!

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Friday, July 14, 2006

lunch with shikin at gelare! with nicole n rose too! shikin didnt get the waffles even though we went there cos it's a tuesday. "you're weird"<-- a la mr willy wonka. she just got herself a sorbet which tasted like medicine. haha..

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everybody meet rose and nicole. hahahahahhaa..
shikin and i were waiting for them to come join us and i asked shikin what they were doing now.

shikin: she's doing yoga everyday and bumming (while pointing to the chair on the right) and she's back in singapore for 2 weeks(while pointing to the other chair)

and when i said, "nice bag." she pointed to the chair on the left and said, "she bought it for me."

hahaha.. wth shikin

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am i scary? am i scary? thanks to fez for the make up. anyway, i was a ghost for fright night for foc! hahahahaa.. and mommy let me drive all the way to school and back by myself. everybody now waaaaaahhhhhh

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the noose was supposed to be around my head la actually. heh..

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went rock-climbing at my uncle's place, climb asia! fun fun funnn. rozzie and shah were good. az had perseverence. i just sucked. haha.. i just couldnt get over that damn thing that jutted out of the wall! gimme straight walls and i'll have no problem. gimme inclined ones and i'll fall after like 2 moves. haha.. the shoes sucked ass though. so damn tight! for more info, go to www.climb-asia.com

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shah and rozzie

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went to have ayam penyet after that. yum yummmm.. love love the sambal! oh oh see the chickens hanging all around the board? hahahahahhaa

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yeapp.. see the lines the chicken is hanging from? hahaa

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the lunch was way too short! we were supposed to talk abt which modules to take and stuff but ended up talking abt so many other things that we had to plan another meet up next week just to plan our timetable. haha.. well, couldnt blame us. we haven't met up for ages~

.|. dreamed.at .|. 9:54 PM

after lunch with my babes, i didnt feel like going home. so i called di and forced her to mandi cepat2 and meet me at starbucks while i content myself with a cuppa and a book. and i realised someone looking at me while i was reading and i looked up but since i was wearing specs, all i saw was a blurry head on a fuzzy mass of turqoise and white.

it was only when di arrived that i looked up and realised that it was janissa! wheeee! so nice bumping into her. we caught up till she had to leave for tuition. and we parted with, "we have to meet up one day" and started laughin cos we know that that "one day" will never come.

i wanted to catch love me butch later at baybeats and i asked my mom whether i could go home damn late. you know.. just trying my luck. and this time, there was a glimmer of hope! she didnt push a big fat NO to my face immediately. well i'll be damned.

she started asking some qns on what the hell baybeats was about and i was like ok this is where i have to play my cards right. i actually had a good feeling that she might just let me out late and then i saw her hesitating. i can actually sense her old self debating with her new self(the one that didnt say no immediately). uh oh.. and then it all crashed.

"takde takde takde. ape ni ah? nak balik malam2? abeh nak pergi tempat crowded2 pulak tu. sudah sudah. jangan kluar!"

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Thursday, July 13, 2006

"Oh yah went to watch band comp and like always the guys in black gets it! u guys should try not winning sometimes, it liberates you...."
-abdul, my old friend who used to be from bowen band.

haha! i told him we just can't help it. my batch planted good seeds. ;p

my mom has told me countless times to "lose weight and join yana in sq".

firstly, if i could help it, i'd lose weight too!

secondly, i'm too frigging clumsy and impatient to be serving pple! i mean i'd just drop your piping hot coffee on your lap anytime. turbulence or no turbulence. and i think i've said before that stupid pple annoy me and there are a lot of stupid pple up there. actually, there are a lot of stupid pple everywhere. which leaves me in a predicament. i dun want to be annoyed all the time! but that's beside the point. you just can't put "fiza" and "serving pple" together. it'd be chaotic.

on another note, it'd be nice to travel around. now that sq's flying to madrid(i think. or somewhere else in spain lah) and milan, i'm extremely jealous of diana! bluek. siiiiiggghhhh i wanna be the daughter of a millionaire. then i can travel and be merry inexhaustably(is there even such a word? someone tell me pls. i feel that my brain is dying. thank you)!

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Monday, July 10, 2006

azzurri magic

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totti apa hal? hahaha

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whoooa hold it back boys!

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i had no plans to watch the match outside actually. cos the place i only ever watch it is at simpang~ and i didnt wanna watch the finals at simpang! so anyway, then waty asked me whether i wanted to watch it at tm with rahayu and some others. so yayy tm it is!

damn exciting first half. not so exciting second, but still not so bad. frustrating extra time cos you could see the italians just walking on the pitch and half-hearted sprints and them just resigning to penalty shootouts which i was told by waty was bad. think usa 94! the french had much better stamina and that left me scared shitless.

oh know what?? at the 70-something-th minute, it started to pour! hahaa.. we just sat still at our place until the rain got a bit heavier so we shifted to join some pple who were using the mats we were sitting on as shelter. but the view wasn't too great. so in the end, we just sat back in the open. haha.. wet and sore bum=uncomfortable!

but it was worth it cos the penalty was best best! when i saw trezeguet walk up, i was like habis! bye france. yayy!

so yeapp.. the game was superb! except for..

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the stupid view i got from under our "shelter".

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*sobs* what happened zizou?? he's one who is almost always calm and focused on the field. =( and he was crying when he was walking off the field. =( ok apparently, this is what i heard. you know the part when materazzi hugged zidane? apparently, he pinched zidane's nipple! i dunno i didnt see it but i heard from someone. i mean who watches soccer and looks out for nipple-pinching action rite?so anyway, after that they exchanged a few words and zidane smiled and ran ahead, turned, and rammed his head onto materazzi's chest.

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Thursday, July 06, 2006

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LOVE

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